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"How I wish I could go back to my childhood days..."

I swear that it's going to be the very last time I will change my blogskin. It's such a chore having to change. Alright. Im leaving for my camp in 24 hours. I'll be back on Good Friday. Fatigue had been following me since last night. So what? I had fun! :D

So I'll be on HIATUS, til then! :DD

later.

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Im feeling damn pissed right now. It's not really emo-ing, but my mood isn't there. Whatever. Maybe it's partly because of the ungrateful brat. Fuck. I can really punch the walls if i want to. $#!@%#@#^$^%#$^#$^#^%^#$@%@%#$%#$^#$^#$^#$%#%%#$%@$%

Sarah's pissed.

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Am I disgraceful?! AM I FUCKING DISGRACEFUL?! WHAT'S THE FUCKING PROBLEM WITH HAVING ME AS YOUR FUCKING SISTER?! I was being nice as a sister to watch you run! Yet you're being ungrateful by telling me NOT TO COME! urgggggggh. WHY?! Do you ever fuckingly think that i will do anything fucking stupid?! Inititally, you were the one who's desperately asking me to go! Im really disappointed in you. Really.

later.

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MJ with the usual people at the usual place. You know it!:) Today is boring.BORING!BORING!BORING!Wonder how chok's doing. :( I miss her. Had dessert with MJ at food court. Home sweet home. :(

later.

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Mom's a MIA queen! She complained of rashes appearing on her face and she thought of going on leave for a day. LOL. I realised she got a pair of red pumps from M--something? I simply said, " Mom, your shoes are ugly." Guess what she replied? " IT'S NICE OK? DAMN NICE! I'VE GOT GOOD TASTE. '' right. Good taste. Her fashion sense/ preferences/likes totally differ from mine. totally.

later.


I think I...

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Eff. Annoying relatives I have. Well, they are still my elders. I've got to give them the weeny bit of respect. Right. Seems like Im quite impatient with old folks. Gee. Whacking my piano away the whole afternoon. Im really tired, physically. I sleep late and wake up early in the morn. Sheesh. What's going on? I have no idea. And, that Jason Ho is effing rich. He had moved to 2 places within 2 years.!

Oh f*ck. Why am I so f*cking poor?

I think my mundane and dull life had been making me miserable. Nowhere to go. Singapore's too small. Just looking forward to this Sunday:)

later

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So. She should have reached Melbourne by now. Received a morning call from her. Was quite saddened by her departure though. She refused to let me go to the airport as it was too early. Right. Set my alarm at 7 and bingo!she called :) Yes. Mom told me to get webcam so that I can see her from aussie:) Haha. Okay. 'nuff said. Period. Just looking forward to Decemeber. :)


later.

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Alright. Shut up. I can't stop the tears. Im really emo-ing. Don't ask. You know it. Argh. It's been months since I've been emo. Stop it.

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"Goodbye, my beloved friend."

The day is approaching. 26032007 is the date im going to remember. She's leaving. My friend, my legendary girlfriend. Since kindergarten, we've always been together. Now, we can't meet whenever we like. Prolly holidaying at melbourne. :( Right. I don't want to get emo now.

later

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Listening to: Maybe Tomorrow- Stereophonics.

I was feeling bored and surfed the net aimlessly. Decided to read XX's blog. Her blog entries really crack me up. It makes me wonder why there is such a narcissistic and self-centered person. It's like you do not have to announce to the WHOLE world about your relationship with your boyfriend. Do you have to go telling everyone, " Hey! My boyfriend and I have gone through 1 year of ordeal." People might wonder, " Do I look like I want to know?" Oh please. And, she's got no right to criticize about people's appearances when she isn't that pretty either. Teens who are bespectacled can look good ok?! Bloggers.

later.

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" It's time to let go and say goodbye."

Haha. Saw this on deviantart. It has a very simple meaning behind : The girl was just playing with that thing. But from my perspective, it looks like she's releasing something since then. :)

Many views differ.

later.

It's always better when we're together <3

So we had our tour at NP. Alright. I can't imagine myself climbing the slope to my school. The school compound is fine. The library is BIG. There's a theatre for students to relax ; or rather, SLACK. Haha. Well, there's only ESPN channel. We've agreed to go to school together :)

I won't be lonely, at least.

Thank You For Loving Me :)

This song is the OST from HYD. The lyrics were meaningful too.

Flavor Of Life- Utada Hikaru.

When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’tget undone even after the good bye.
the faintly burning pain.
The flavor of life

Neither friends nor lovers, in uncertain terms
like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
because of being unable to just move one more step forward
It’s just so frustrating

When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’tget undone even after the good bye.
the faintly burning pain.
The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
i have no interest in them
even when things do not go the way I want them
you make me believe that there is still something in life

When asked ‘ whats wrong?’
I answer ‘its nothing’
The smile that disappears after goodbye
I’m not like myself anymore

The more i wish to believe in you,
For some reason it hurts even more‘i like you’ instead of ‘i love you’ is more like the person I knew
the flavor of life

I wish I could cherish the white color of the falling snow like I used to
by the time I would remember the scent of the person I’ve nearly forgotten

A future tender and warmer than a diamond
i want to grasp it, in this limited time we have, i want to live it with you
when you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesntget undone even after the good bye.
the faintly burning pain.
The flavor of life

Emotions get the better of me again. Just listening to it makes me emotional. :\

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Listening to: Listen- Beyonce. K

Muahaha. I think I've gotten over the 2-week fandom of HYD. Today marks the finale of the drama:) Sagara, you're wrong.!They will never be together :) Makino will always be with Domyouji. Yesssa! Edgar bought his crumpler. Right. This is like a compensation to his absence from the kelong trip with the school. :\\ Yes. Very tired. Very.

later.

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So we had 6H class outing :D It's been some time since we organised one. I like the way we were. It's better to interact that way. Unlike the previous gatherings :\\ Anyway, Jo. Khoo is so tall now. o.O Chanxi is always funny. She always cracks me up. heh. New York New York is a great place. I love the ambience and the food! Omg. Just the title makes me sinful. Haha.!They have giant meatballs; I wonder how GIANT the meatballs are. LOL. We had a cam-whoring session too. :)



Just love the decor:)



We are wearing black!! :)


New York New York!

Thanks very much. That was a spastic pose with the menu.

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So it's been quite some time I've kept up with this blog. Anyway, met up with Sing yen. :) My legendary girlfriend. Ha. Lunched and dined in the evening together with Aunt Jennifer (aka her mom) and Mom. Yeah. Thai food was great. We loved it hot and spicy. :D Not sure of the departure date, but I'll definitely go see her off. Sad. I will miss her, definitely. Sheesh. Emotions are getting the better of me again. :(

Apart from this; as usual, Im into my HYD season 2! :( Sad. One obstacle after another, seems like the love knot between Domyouji & Makino can never been untied. Shigeru is already a handful, now here comes another UMI-CHAN! :( Ah. The scene is tearing me up again. Emotions. Seems like Im getting used to Nihongo. :) Maybe I should go for proper lessons to brush up the broken language.


later.







Love her for life. :)

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So we were singing our guts out at Chevrons. LOL. 6th Aunt's birthday was celebrated there. The children (ie. my cousins) were snatching the mic while I was sitting there like an idiot, listening to their "beautiful yet resounding" voices.
Being the oldest child among the 9 grandchildren, there's a generation gap between the children and me. I believe that it's prolly because Mom was the oldest child among my 9 uncles and aunts. My youngest cousin, Laticia, is only 2 years old! A difference of 14 years between us.! When it comes to educating lil' fella like her, I have to be patient. She's quite vulnerable and fearful of people like me. :\ However, the biggest problem of all : Language barrier. Having a mother from China, it's no wonder that she's got the gene of speaking fluent Chinese at a tender age. She could speak perfect Mandarin.BUT! she can't speak English. Especially when her playgroup teacher is an INDIAN. The cleaner in Apple Tree Playgroup actually feedback to my uncle (ie. her father) that she couldn't speak a single English word and she EVEN spoke Mandarin to her Indian teacher. Right. Poor Indian teacher couldn't understand her. Hence, my uncle tried to instill the right values in her so that she can learn English the proper way. But it's proven to be difficult cuz my maternal relatives are "orientally inclined". Nobody could speak English fluently except the cousins of mine. Right. A challenge for me. :\\\\

later.

Jun is love. <3

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Damn. I don't know Dad is a member of St. James Power Station until I saw the golden ticket to St. James Power Station. Darn. He was invited to the grand opening. Sheesh. Im 16 going to be 17. Not even bloody 18. Argh. I want to go!! Bah. Boring.
MATSUJUN.! My perfect boyfriend. Sad. Next week's going to be the last episode.! :( Why?! The ending wasn't supposed to be like that in the manga series. :(((((( What a cute couple. Makino Tsukushi & Domyoji Tsukasa. Kawaii ne. Matsujun could speak at least one proper Chinese sentence. "Wo yao chi bei jing kao ya. " ( I want to eat Beijing duck). How cute.

I want a boyfriend like him. *rich, cute, dumb!

charming. :DD

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So I lunched with Mom at the Thai restaurant beneath her office. An eye candy was spotted at the ice cream shop opposite the restaurant. Good view from where I was sitting :DD I asked Mom whether she wanted ice cream. She was easy. When I stepped into the shop, that guy was looking at me. Aww. My heart missed a beat. :P He was just so cute. LOL. Perhaps I was thinking too much. heh. I wouldn't mind working there. Ice cream, eye candy. Man. It's too good to be true. HAHA.

later.

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Today's dad's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!! There's an IT show at Suntec.Who's interested? Anyone?

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To hell with fucking spammers!! That's my last straw to you people. Stop posting nonsensical comments on my friend's blog. DO NOT PUT WORDS INTO PEOPLE'S MOUTH I simply loathe these people. oh well. I couldn't sleep. oh look, it's only 0830 in the morn!!It's so early. Right. Yes. Im losing hair and going bald. shit. I need to tune my body towards the proper time. If not, you will see a bald Sarah REAL SOON ! :\\\


later.

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Listening To: Be Your Love_ Rachel Yamagata.

so hello. I have no idea whether I should rejoice or to be sad. Damn. Many people would love to get into the course I am currently in-Business Studies(BS). Right. Jerald ticked me off by saying that I would be fucking stupid to drop out of that course. Im aware that i missed the COP of banking by 1 fucking point! Yes. I repeat. 1 fucking point.! nvm. Dad told me that I can still pursue BFS in NUS. BUT!BUT! I don't smell it coming! :\\ Let's see how I've become in the next 3 years. :)


later.

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The tremor of Sumatra's earthquake has greatly affected many in Singapore. LOL. I was sleeping on my couch when my house literally "shook". LOL. Haha. I thought that my granny was shaking my couch. (thinking that she had nothing to do). Dad couldn't be bothered with the tremor and continued with his golf. Granny said, " Your daddy couldn't be bothered. Wait til he comes back to find the whole family dead." lmao. Her statement was quite overreacting, though.

later.

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School: Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Course: Business Studies.
Course Code: N45

Yeah. Business Studies. Although I pinned my hopes on Banking & Finances, I was quite contented with Business Studies. Yeah. Mom was considering of an appeal. I hate appealing. It's such a chore. Oh well.

later

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Yesterday's MJ session made me realise the importance of $$. Damn. I shouldn't continue MJ after dinner. Money was rolling in the earlier afternoon. Right after dinner, MY RED-COLORED NOTE WAS GONE! :(((((((((( We moved on to BlackJack. In fact, it was WORSE! Eventually, Mom was the ultimate winner. She was the banker and she won 50+ bucks. Heh. She gave me 10 bucks as compensation. :D Love her.

Life's boring. Anyone for shopping?

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Visit to Chief's place was good. At least. :)

oh well.

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Nothing much to blog either. Oh well. Paycheck was deposited into my account. YAY! I feel rich all of a sudden. Haha.! I have to give the folks $$$. It's a way of contribution to the family. Bro came asking me, " Jie. I want a crumpler bag." Damn. I knew it. He'll come asking for this one day. Teh day arrived. :\ Anyway, I've told him that he can go on pining for the bag for all I care cuz it's way beyond my means to buy a 159-dollar bag for that brat. His bags could never last beyond a year. Note! A YEAR! My bag , though it's branded Nike, (claimed to be a durable one). After 3 years, it's pronounced irreparable. See? Even branded bags could not last long, let alone a CRUMPLER MESSENGER BAG. ok. Maybe I was into Crumpler once. But no! 159 is way beyond my budget. Instead, I'll get an Adidas watch for him as consolation. Adidas is branded enough alright. That branded brat. Furthermore, I can't imagine myself slogging my guts to pay for his fees in SSS for the next 4 years. -.- 1k per month is too much. The government is simply biased not to subsidise golf. :( He prolly thinks golf is a rich-man's game. yeah whatever.

later.

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" Ugly people will get handsome boyfriends." Agree? Maybe I could make myself look more uglier and who knows? Some hunks will come for me :DD Just like Ugly Betty.



Ugly Is The New Beautiful.

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This friend here is also a fan of Mr B. :)