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Ear Candy: -.

so hello, lunch was awesome today. Despite the heavy downpour, I could still feel warm at heart. I love 6H 2002!!WE ROCK! Kwokie is still as funny, Douglas is still as usual (*perhaps obssessed with Jamie), Wei Xiang is still *ahem* short. Everyone's changing. Zhong Ming is still as quiet as ever. Gwen and company are still the same. Xinhui looks more feminine now. CHANXI! OMG!It's been like ages since we have met. I was gonna cry when i saw her. After lunch, we actually ran/played in the rain. It was so funny yet we still enjoyed it. It's the first time we have fun in the rain together. Bernice, Chanxi, Sarah and Weixuan. FOREVER 4! WE'RE FOUR-SOME UNITED! WE ROCK. :DD

LOVE.

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Ear Candy: Have You Ever- Brandy.

hola people. Like I've said before, everyday is a learning experience for me. Im learning something everyday, be it academics, friendship, relationships, etc. Well, let's talk about academics. I received my monthly report few days back. I was shocked for words cuz I have distinctions for C. Humans. I was utterly surprised. Omg. I was like telling Jason, " OMG OMG!! I GOT DISTINCTIONS FINALLY.!!" * almost wanted to hop onto him. :P LOL. Anyway, I was really happy. At that during the assembly, I saw Chief. I asked her and she told me she took the grades of the mock test. I was like : yeah baby, I did well man. I knew it. I can feel it. Whenever I feel that I did well, I will do well. But this doesn't happen all the time. I guess the probability is less than 10%. :D haha. Well, Prelims are coming. Gotta work extra hard. Today is a rainy day. Ms kang told us yesterday that God is crying over stupid people doing stupid things. I guess she's right in such that many people don't appreciate her teachings. *although she does get on my nerves at times :Well, this is it.
Im faking a smile, a laughter in my life. I feel equally miserable too. Do you think that Im not? please. You are so happy together with her. Im sure you are happy. Don't you know that your happiness inficts pain in me?
I've gotta stay strong. I must be able to carry on. Everyday is a challenge. I must overcome the challenger. I shall ignore the negative thoughts and move on to the end.
I must be happy. Im cheerful. Im optimistic. I can do it! :DD

looking forward to tmrw's gathering. I MISS BERNICE!! :DDDD
*I may cry upon seeing her. :X

later.

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Ear Candy: That Boy Is Mine- Brandy Feat. Monica.

hola people. I've officially finished my artifact. I can forget a shit about the frigging DNT. :PP LOL. ahh. Prelims are around the corner. Gotta get my ass to my books to get to where I wanna go. My mood has been inconsistent these few days. Perhaps the stress is getting onto me. Yeah. Ooossaaa~ I don't really think that this is going to help me manage stress. Hehs. Just saying for the sake of relieving stress.

Someone told me that since we have problems with our character, we should change them so as to become a better person. She's got a point there, but what you need to do is courage. Nvm. I shall not dwell too much on this matter since im going to aim at certain people.

later.

Dear friend
what's on your mind?
You don't laugh the way you used to
And I thought I saw you cry
Dear friend
I feel so helpless
I see you sit in silence as you face new pain each day
I feel there's nothing I can do
Dear friend
Im here for you
I know that we don't talk too much
But we can share this day... anew.

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Ear Candy: Im Not Missing You - Stacie Orrico.

so hello, I've finished my artifact.!what a relief. :D I was so happy and sad at the same time. I felt so tired yet I felt happy for my own production. heh. This week has been quite eventful. Everyone's busy rushing through their artifacts like kan chiong spiders. Haha. LOL. Anyway, as I've mentioned before in my previous entries ; whenever I received something good, something bad's bound to happen. This is freaking true. Well duh, Mother bought me a Puma watch which I've always wanted (YAY!I was already expecting that though. Just acted excited to humour her :P) , hence my friendship was ruined with my own hands. Actually, it's not really with my bare hands though. I simply just left her since Im only making her miserable. So... My departure would do her good. :) Yeah. This would do both of us good since we can't communicate as well as before. Yupp. It's for the best. Thanks Jon for your key-chain. Seeing that really makes my day. (Though the smiley face really looks like CM. oops) Anyway, tmrw's the VERY VERY LAST DEADLINE! DA VINCI, YOU CAN DO IT! :D

Life and death are part and parcel of our lives. Sometimes, the people who are closest to us tend to leave earlier than us. Thus, it's their departures which made us stronger. What would you do if you only have a few more years to live? If this were to happen to me, I'd make full use of my few years to accomplish the things that I want to do. Thus, I wouldn't regret dying with empty promises. Isn't that simple? Why can't people just accept it? Sometimes, when you're given the green light to depart from the world, the scenario isn't that bad at all. It is that you're given the chance to become a better person. Always look at things at a different perspective. Things are perhaps not that bad from another outlook. Just like when I give you a glass half filled with water, what do you see? Some will tell me that it's half-empty; some will tell me that it's half-full. So, sometimes, in life, we do have to see things in different perspectives so as to get a better picture out of the box. It does not necessarily mean that we have to go straight, but we can also go towards umm.... maybe crooked path? In life, not everything is fixed and organised properly, but we have to change it; we have to be flexible in life.
You see, things aren't that bad after all.

Always look on the bright side of life.

later.

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Ear Candy: Dear Friend- Stacie Orrico.

so hello, why do people only realise their mistakes at the brink of a situation? Why does this always happen to people who are simply too stubborn to know their mistakes and realise it at the last minute? Perhaps this is humane of us to think that way.

Fatigue/Exhaustion is what we feel now. Tmrw's the last day. Da vincians, let's get our asses burning and get to it tmrw!! WE CAN DO IT!! WE'RE UNITED DA VINCI! :D we rock.

later.

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Ear Candy: A Public Affair-Jessica Simpson.

so hello people. This week has been a tiring one for Da Vincians. Everyone was working their asses off. That included me too. Failures after failures, I've learnt to take it easily. Well, it's true that failures which made us strong. Isn't?

Well, anyway, I had a talk with a friend. She made me feel better initially. Life is unpredictable. You cannot predict what's going to happen the next day. Hence, you should make a full use of your life. Colour it, excite it, enrich it. You'll feel more complete that way. I agree with her: we're vulnerable. We need friends. True friends are they who help you and dash for you despite the dangers they are going to face.
I, myself, am also vulnerable. Indeed, I can't deny the fact I am. Im a person who couldn't accept failures. Therefore, I'd make sure that mistakes will not occur. As a result, when something screwed up, it's as though my world is going to collapse. Yes. Who would like to see mistakes in their projects? Well, am I glad that there are really true friends who are there for me. When I dashed out of the school, they'd really go out of their way to find me. I felt equally bad for making them cry their hearts out. I, hereby, apologise to them for making them worry.
Yes. Im not ashamed to announce that Im suffering from depression. Who isn't? Don't give me the shit that you're not stressed. Who isn't stressed? Everyone is. It is just how they manage their stress. Whereas I am concerned, I, of course, didn't manage my stress properly. This is indeed true. Im not ashamed to say that I've attempted suicide before. Yeah. I've slitted my wrist. Does that help? HELL NO!! You're only hurting yourself. For goodness' sake, to those stupid teens, PLEASE DO NOT TRY THIS TO YOURSELF! IT ISN'T HELPING AT ALL.! Okay. I've said enough about this. I know this friend of mine is reading. haha. of course she knows more than just this entry alone.

Many things happened within this week. I've learnt that the people I've hurt over the past few weeks had been badly scarred by my deeds. Im hereby sincerely apologising to these people. (provided if they are reading this entry) Whatever. I had a friend who had an accident. He's strong and optimistic. He didn't expect this. If you were me, you wouldn't expect this. So please don't blame yourself for whatever had happened. Nobody wanted this to happen. This is purely just an accident. Anyway, I walked my friend home. He told me, " I endured much greater pain than this. Of course, I have to be positive. Nothing will happen to me" This friend helped me regardless of whether it is physically/mentally. This time, Im helping him physically. I have 101% faith in him that he'll be fine. He's a fighter. He's a winner. God will bless him. (always)

No matter how hard the journey is, remember your friends and family. They will be there for you no matter what happens. Just be strong and optimistic. Keep those negative thoughts away from your mind and you can be a happy person. again. * (more like telling myself, isn't?)

later.

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Ear Candy:-.

hola people. Okay. This is really draining my energy. If I don't get a distinction for this frigging subject, Im so gonna drop dead. Despite the weariness and exhaustion from the putty-ing and sand-ing, I feel touched and happy doing those chores. Mother was helping me with those tiresome chores. In spite of me preventing her from touching my artifacts, she insisted in doing together with me. She claimed that it was fun doing it. I laughed it off and told her, " If you were me, you'd not be able to say that. " Hah. Perhaps that was a gesture of concern. It was good though.

Everyday is a learning experience for me. I believe that one day, everyone will learn to accept each other's strengths and weaknesses. Not all people will agree with this statement that I've made but at least this is true for me. Let's picture ourselves in a situation: 2 persons, one cheese, one maze. How is this going to work? These 2 persons are the best of friends with common preferrences. However, due to certain conflicts, things did not work out well. As a result, they fell out and went their separate ways. One day, they were given a piece of paper which was led to a maze. When these 2 friends met, they were appalled at the sight of each other. One cheese was the source of food to last them all the way to the exit of the maze. They are supposed to find the exit for the maze. Well, as you expected, it didn't work out well. Eventually, both of them died in the midst of the maze. Why?

They couldn't give and take. Ultimately, they couldn't make it for the exit of the maze. They died. This goes to show that better is a person who gives and takes. If I give way to others all the time, I'd become the one who'd be taken advantage of. Vice versa. Agree?

later.

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Ear Candy: Where'd You Go- Fort Minor.

so hello, it's the release of the O Level chinese results. Oh whatever. I was quite disappointed. Expected a distinction for myself but... I've got a freaking B3. Mdm Cao was so disappointed. Ahh. Big deal. I'll retake the exam once again at the end of the freaking year. What tough luck I had. Everytime I received something good, there's bound to have something bad which happened. Im never going to take the good stuff before something bad is gonna happen. This sucks.
Independence is what I need to have. Perhaps Im still dependent on others that made me vulnerable. Yeah. I am vulnerable. So what? Aren't all of you vulnerable too? Don't give me the shit that you guys are superman/superwoman. Haha. Don't make me fall onto the ground laughing. Misunderstandings are common among everyone. It's up to them to clear up themselves, thus, the misunderstanding will clear up soon.

Someone told me that the biggest challenge is yourself. You need to overcome yourself before you can accomplish your so-called mission. Hence, you're labelled as a fighter. You need to have the courage.
Just like in a race: Everyone is equal. Everyone's competing against one another to the end. For me, I don't care. As long as I finish the race, I don't care if Im the last, but I know that Im winner cuz I've finished the race. Why not?
Can't you do the same?

The biggest enemy is not others but yourself. You're not the first in everyone's eyes, but you're a winner at heart. :D

later.

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Ear Candy:-.

so hello, I've watched "click" with my bitch. Okay. Click was meant to be a comedy but it turned out to be a learning point of life at the end of the movie. To begin with, everyone leads a busy and hectic life. Sometimes, when you're overly-ambitious or perhaps you're severly obssessed with your stuff, you couldn't be bothered with the surroundings around you. In this movie, Michael is an architect. He's a workaholic. All he does is drawing and modelling. He forgot about his son's swimming competition, he forgot his son's treehouse. He forget everything and simply placed his career above everything. Family is only something superficial. At the end, he realised that kinship is the most valuable of all. Life is pushing people around. Why do you want to let life push you? You can always fight back and push it to the maximum. Right? After all the unhappy events that had happened, I've learnt alot. For the very last time, I stressed that I really have learnt alot. Im dead serious. Strong is a person who fights and never stop giving up on life. For this person is a fighter. Well, I believe that more than 95% of the teenagers will have suicidal thoughts and whatnot. This is an immature mentality as they don't understand what the real misery is like. Friendships, relationships, studies, etc. What are they? They are simply just trivial factors of your life. When you step into the society to work for the goventment, that's when you really have to start worrying.
Life is never fair, definitely. You have to fight for what you want and not stand there, motionless, not knowing what to do.

later.

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Music playing: Too Little Too Late- Jojo.

so hello, this is my first entry again.! LOL. Right. I've deleted the previous blog for some reasons or whatsoever. This is brand new one with a brand new url. This is going to be a fresh start. Im loving it. Well, for a headstart, Im so happy that I've completed my DNT product. CONGRATULATE ME PLEASE!! :DD IM SO BLOODY MUTHAFUCKING HAPPY!! :DDD WHEEE!! Haha. Im getting high again. Ahh. Can't wait. Another date with my bitch. whoo.

later.